utter hopelessness and helplessness..

well, i know i should not put sumthing so negative inside this nice place, but i feel tat i should share my "gY to max" feeling with my family.

as u know, i'm flying to canada and disappearing "forever" this saturday, everything i haf, i anticipated, and i planned went the down the drain and into the sea and then into the ocean the moment i know of this impending "disaster". life seems to lost its meaning: wat's the meaning of life if u just live to live? just live to reproduce then die? u haf no control in anything, even things tat are not important?

well, not to be negative here: I'LL BE BACK!

love u all, yujian.

My Maple Christmas =)

I know it's abit late la.. Haha..

Oh yeah, anyone wanna change the blog template?